Current mood:

exhausted

Lessee... how has this week been? Busy, of course! I've had something going on every night of the week. Mostly fun, but I'm sure as heck exhausted.

-Monday I worked late, and Nikki came over and we cut out our dress patterns and fabric for our sewing class on Thursday.

-Tuesday I got my wretched nails done, then met up with the interns for Quizzo at Carabar. We didn't fare very well, and I was tired, but I was glad to get out and be "part of things" so to speak because it was such a pretty night.

-Today I worked late again, then went to Barcelona for an amazing meal on their amazing patio with Mom and Dad. I had: beet and cherry gazpacho with a goat cheese truffle, Manchego cheese with some kind of special sauce I can't remember and boiled almonds, blue cheese croquettes with a fig and caramelized onion relish, the best calamari I've ever eaten (I didn't know it was possible to be so tender) with aioli and mint vinegar, and some mussels in a creamy chorizo and tomato sauce (well, something between a sauce and a broth). OMG. So good. They also change their menu every Thursday and seem to have some great events happening all summer. Afterwards we went to Bakery Gingham. The selection was smaller than I thought it would be, but I'm sure things get picked over as the day goes on. Kinda cute shop... it seems like it's still growing into itself. We were stuffed so we just got our baked goods wrapped up to take home. I just ate my cupcake (it was called "LL Cool Cakes" -- lavender and lemon flavored). It. Was. Amazing. The cake was slightly chewy which was a pleasant texture on a cupcake. MMmmmm. Too much frosting, maybe, but dang that cake was good. And I'm not much of a dessert person. Anyway, it was such a beautiful night; I'm so glad we could go out in it and play a little bit.

Also today I feel like I did some pretty rad stuff at work, even though it was tough to be there at certain points today. It's nerdy lawyer business, so I won't bore you with the details. Oh, and the interns had lunch with Rich Cordray!

I feel kind of conflicted with how this summer is going and how I live my life in general. Sometimes I think I'll never be really satisfied. I feel like I'm constantly striving to some sort of blissful plateau where everything is perfect. I know I need to change that mindset, and I try, but... there it is.

On one hand I'm not doing everything I thought I'd be doing this summer, that is, not getting enough of what I expected out of it. On the other hand, I don't really know how I can do much more. I don't feel like I've been lazy or wasting my time, so what the heck does it take for me to feel satisfied?

Hmmmmm... in a daydreamy mood this evening. Wistful, excited, grateful, enchanted, exhausted.